By: Jiana Rush
I should preface this post with the fact that the title “A Recent Death in My Life” is
purely metaphorical for a technological death in my life. Nonetheless, a death it was.
In the middle of the 2022 school year, I made the switch to online school after attending
public school all my life (with the exception of COVID-19, of course). It was a difficult decision
to make, but it is one that I don’t regret. I told myself that this was a great opportunity and I
would have time for all the things I felt I couldn’t do if I was spending 8 hours of my day at a
desk when I could do the same amount of work in 2 hours. Playing the piano and guitar, learning
how to write a book and even jujitsu were some of the things I had hoped to become well-versed
in. Little did I know I would become well-versed in the lives of people whose pockets are even
deeper than I can imagine. I have embarrassingly spent the majority of this time staying at home
watching movies and surfing the internet to be caught up on the latest gossip involving any
celebrity I recognized. I will say during this time I have also become a child of divorce, so
maybe that offers some explanation for my now short-lived depression.
I was sitting at the kitchen table the other day, forcing myself to do some of my missing
assignments when all of a sudden it finally hit me that I have the choice of which path I go down
in this life. I could be this couch potato who “had potential as a kid” or I could use my potential
and succeed. I guess the point of this post is for my own confirmation that I can change and
deleting all of my social media accounts is truly the best choice I could make.
The point is also so that anyone else who reads this and feels stuck like I did and still do
momentarily, is that there is no secret to becoming unstuck. Just keep moving. Don’t put pressure
on yourself to get a certain amount of work done. Do what you can today and tomorrow do a
little bit more. My grandpa has told me my whole life that we are 24-hour creatures. Do not
burden yourself with the worries of tomorrow when tomorrow isn’t even promised.
